Wish. It’s a topic which is very familiar to all CLAMP fans (obviously, I’m one of them) out there. After all, “wish” seems to be a prominent theme in many of their works. Kamui ‘s wish to bring the old Fuuma back (or so he thought), Kohaku’s wish to live happily with its(!) beloved, Clow’s wish to become not the greatest wizard in the world, Watanuki’s wish to get rid of his spirit attracting ability, the list goes on and on. Wish is something that I’m often taking into consideration one of these days. Not just because of my obsession for CLAMP stories, but given the state I’m in, it’s really inevitable.
Comprehensive test is coming later this month and if I pass it (amen for that), I’ll be graduated on November. At this point, I can’t help thinking about the past AND the future: thinking about my childhood dreams and the choices that need to be made in the near future. And I realize, what I’m doing now has nothing to do with my past hopes/dreams/wishes.
How many movies, books, and songs which bring the topic of “fulfilling your wishes” or “following your dreams”? There are tons of them. It never gets rusty though, because most people decide to do exactly the opposite. We wish for the impossible when we were kids. Of course, it was not impossible back then, but it seems to be impossible now when we’re already grown up.
That’s why most people seem to know what they don’t want to do but have no clue whatsoever about what they want to do. It’s because they choose to forget their past wishes instead of making them come true. As a consequence, they just drift through life and let it takes them wherever it might be going. Or as one of my friends brutally said, those people are lost and they don’t even realize it.
Realizing your real wish is such a great gift. But if you don’t have the guts to make it come true, it’s meaningless. It certainly is the harder part of the two. For example, if I want to make my wish come true, which is to know more about people’s life all around the world at past and present times, I must choose a path completely different from what I was prepared to at college. I must work harder to catch up my lack of qualifications, I must convince my parents, I must try to show my point to people who doesn’t understand, et cetera. It’s certainly a more difficult choice compared to working in a pharmaceutical business like everybody else.
It’s the silly wishes that make the world goes round, though. Could you imagine how it would be today if men had never wished to find a more practical approach to fulfill their needs instead of the usual hunting and gathering? Had never wished to fly in the sky? People don’t get anywhere by following common views and way of life just for the sake of it, that’s for sure. I don’t expect to make that much of an impact for humanity, just making out something out of my own life. By reaching out for my wish.
